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I am half a century old and starting my life over for a fourth time. Fear...yes! Defeat...Never!

Monday, May 16, 2011

Just Looking for a friend...

Actually not a friend...just someone who was once very important in my life...my old debate coach from high school.  We had a very love/hate relationship and he was my first teacher crush!

But as I contemplate a thesis topic for my upcoming last year of school, I keep remembering an old debate topic that made so much sense to me then and I think I am going to reuse it.  So it got me thinking about him and since he relocated to Texas after I graduated and since he had to be very much older than me I thought maybe he'd be retired or dead.  But he's not...alive and well (and how can he NOT have a facebook page and I can find NO pics of him) so I dashed off an e-mail to see if it is him.

Vicious headache tonight and I'm not sure what is going on, but I do feel sometimes like my body is slowly betraying me.  It pisses me  off when I think I can do something, attempt it with all good faith and then realize I'm not physically capable (or if I am, I suffer hugely after finishing).

It got worse since a few years ago when I lost part of my left leg to MRSA.  It left debilitating pain (which I choose to leave untreated) and an awkward gait, but you do learn to live with such things.

The worse part of that whole experience was the drug induced coma I was in for 6 weeks.  The hallucinations were horrific and I have to wonder if I am alone in having suffered through them?  I couldn't even watch TV for a long time afterwards if there were any scenes of pain or mayhem on any one's part.  They still are so vivid almost 2 years later.

But I digress...I sent off an e-mail to my ex-coach to see if it is him...just waiting for a return and maybe a reuniting of old acquaintances.

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